It's been a bloody long time. Sorry about that. I've been a really really lazy bitch recently. Nothing overly exciting has happened to me since I last posted so I shall summarise...
I went to Manchester to see Dave, the boy is fucking rich! His house is like.... 5 times the size of mine. What the hell?! I can't believe I didn't know this! It was a really good few days, we had a fantastically drunken night out which is always good and then just lots of nice hanging out, chatting and stuff. I had a really nice time. So that was cool.
I've been doing a lot of going back and forth from home. Me and Squid went to Thorpe Park. That was wicked. Then I brought Stef back to Cardiff with me for a few days which was awesome because none of my friends from home had been to visit me before. Dave came down to Cardiff early to meet her which was really sweet. So me, Stef, Dave, Joe, Indie and Matt had a brilliantly drunken night at metros. It was a really really good night. I was trashed.
I may have cried on Dave which was embarrassing... Me and Stef were chatting about guys in the toilets and she told me she had said to Dave "oh why don't you go out with Lauren? It might be fun!" and his response was "I couldn't do that, she's my best friend." Now initially this made me the happiest person in the world. I had this massive grin. It really does mean the world to me that he would think that much of me. That he would consider me to be his best friend. But then when we got back in the club and I looked at him and thought about it I realised that I had pretty much been rejected without even having to tell him how I feel. That is exactly the response I was afraid he would have if I told him I liked him. So I burst into tears... he took me outside and held me while I cried and tried to get me to tell him what was wrong. And I really really wanted to tell him but I was so very drunk I couldnt even talk. I physically couldn't find the right words to explain what was going on. So I just slurred "I love you..." at him and then managed to say "I'm fine... lets get a drink." And we went back inside. All quite humiliating really...
It was really nice to just hang out with Stef in general. I haven't really seen any of my friends from home this summer which kind of makes me sad :(
Other than that, not a lot has happened really. All the drama in my life seems to revolve around Dave which is really quite sad. He's been in Cardiff a lot over the past couple of weeks. He stayed at mine a couple of times which was nice. I dyed his hair again, black this time. It looks nice, I like it. It was like torture though. Bearing in mind I had consumed a bottle of wine and was feeling a little over emotional . After I had put the dye on his hair I realised I had got a lot on the back of his neck so I had to wash it off for him. I had to stand there with him topless, gently washing the back of his neck. I could have cried. I managed to control myself though.
Speaking of hair I dont know what to do with mine. I want to do something really exciting but I don't think it'll go down well with work. So I need to be careful. If anyone has any suggestions feel free to share. Me and Dave were watching Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind and he said I should dye it blue but I think work would go mental. Which sucks because I kind of want to. But I want to dye it orange even more. Maybe if I do something extreme I could get a wig!? Hmm.... I think I'm taking this too far.
Anyway... tonight Joe starts his new job at O'Neils so me and Indie are going to prop up the bar. Although I think Indie is trying to worm his way out of it because he's a lazy bastard. I may have to force him. Now I must shower because I'm pretty gross atm.
If I think of anything I have forgotten to mention, I'll be back :)